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Me:

I bought a body shaper, a matching bra, and I’ll be wearing tights.  The only part I can’t decide is if I want to wear a shawl to cover my arms.  I feel like that is the part that keeps bugging me. I’m sooo not used to showing off my body; other girls have no problem with their mini skirts and tube tops and I am feeling so self conscious wearing a barely above the knee length dress.  Now is NOT the time to be getting cold feet.  How long did it take you girls who have lost a weight until you felt comfortable in more revealing clothing?

Mid week weigh in

I’m in the 220’s!!!!!! 

Current Weight 227.8

I didn’t want to go to the movies anyways.  My roommate and I were suppose to go see The Lucky One tonight, we were texting about it and everything last night.  I got home today at 6 and she wasn’t here, the movie started at 7:30, so no big deal, yet.  Well she didn’t come home and I didn’t get to see my movie.  What bugs me most is that she didn’t even text me to cancel or anything.  I hope she doesn’t get home in the next few minutes and be like, let’s go to the 10:25 showing.  Sorry, I’m busy and have a date with the gym.  I’m telling you guys this because earlier and even still I am feeling hurt, walked over, and disrespected.  I always seem to be the person that people can just walk over and be friends with, at their leisure(because I stick around).  The old me(around a year ago) would have driven straight to the nearest Mcdonalds.  I would have ordered a mcdouble, a mcchicken, and a large fry.  Afterward I would have probably gone to Starbucks because the Mcdonalds food didn’t make me feel better.  Finally I would have came back home sat on my couch and pretended like I didn’t just eat my daily intake of calories in 1 hour.  So instead of turning toward fast food I decided a trip to Walmart was in order.  I looked in my fridge, saw what I needed to buy, wrote a list, and stuck to it. If your wondering what I bought

-spinach

-individual bags of carrots 

-soy milk 

-greek yogurt

-frozen broccoli

-bananas

-mangos

I also picked up two new pairs of workout capris(on clearance) and a pack of sports bras.  I’m proud of myself for channeling my disappointment in a positive way, and not sulking into a state of depression. Now off to get ready to head to the gym.

Thank you all for the responses to the Jillian Michaels video I posted a few days ago. Sorry it took me so long to update about my own opinion, but I did respond to one of the messages I received so if you care to know my view on the video scroll through my posts!!.  School is currently crushing my soul, so I am really busy these days. 

So here is a mini update on my weight loss progress.  As of last Monday I weighed in at 238lbs!! At 5’4 I still have a ways to go until I’m considered a healthy weight but I’m so happy with the progress I am making.  I’ve been averaging going to the gym 4-5 days a week each session lasting 1hour and a half. This is progress within itself.  I actually look forward to my workouts because I know how great I’m going to feel afterwards.  Endorphins really are the best!  I’ve been trying to do 50/50 for cardio and strength training. I’m proud to say I’ve noticed I’ve gained muscle mass in my arms, but sadly these bat wings are driving me crazy! My brother makes fun of them all the time.  It doesn’t really bother me when comments on them, I kind of just laugh it off. But they really are probably my most insecure body area at the moment.  Some people are beginning to comment on my weight loss, which kind of makes me proud but also I am not very good with taking compliments. I really should work on that. I know I have been working hard and there is a big difference in my body, but that tiny annoying negative part in my head every so often will sneak in and say “they’re just being nice”.  I need to get a shotgun and shoot that evil thing.  As of the recent last month I’m averaging around 15lbs a month now, so progress has slowed down, as is to be expected.  Lastly, I hope you all are doing well in your journeys to happier/ healthier selfs!

Outlasted both of them  

Winning!!!!! 

Motivation Pants- CHECK!

Oh and they were so worth waking up at 7am to be the highest bidder. ($13.00!!)