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I bought a body shaper, a matching bra, and I’ll be wearing tights.  The only part I can’t decide is if I want to wear a shawl to cover my arms.  I feel like that is the part that keeps bugging me. I’m sooo not used to showing off my body; other girls have no problem with their mini skirts and tube tops and I am feeling so self conscious wearing a barely above the knee length dress.  Now is NOT the time to be getting cold feet.  How long did it take you girls who have lost a weight until you felt comfortable in more revealing clothing?

My pouch doesn’t give me problems, only rarely in certain cases when I eat to fast will it act up. Some may say I’m lucky because I can eat foods without having to be too cautious of my pouch getting upset.  This scares me because I feel like at anytime I could slip up and go back to my old ways.  I eat well now and exercise regularly, so my fingers are crossed that this routine will become my lifestyle.  People just don’t understand.  Like today my friend offered me a piece of chocolate, I said no, but then she went and placed in next to me on the bed, saying “in case you change your mind”.  I was being polite and said that I really didn’t want it, and then she replied “one piece wont hurt”.  Yes it will hurt, I don’t want to test my boundaries! I’m so afraid of going back to being unhappy and unhealthy.  WLS is definitely not the easy way out, and people need to realize that all the temptations before surgery are still going to be there after surgery.  Just like any other weight loss method, you need to keep your mind set on your ultimate goal, and not let temptations keep you from reaching it.  The End!

Since December I have been weighing myself weekly to track my progress. In the beginning it was exciting but it has gotten to be less exciting in the recent weeks.  I don’t dread going on the scale but it isn’t my biggest motivation anymore.  I have felt happier about myself now after I’ve completed a tough work out or I fit into a smaller size of clothing.  NSV now seem to be what I see as important. That being said do you guys think I should start weighing myself every other week instead? I still value the number I see on the scale, but I don’t see it as the determining factor of my success.  Let me know what you guys think!!! 

Around 3 years ago I went to knotts berry farm in southern california. I stood in line to go on a roller coaster( I don’t remember the name of it). After waiting in line I got in the seat and attempted to put the safety strap over me, only to find it wouldn’t fit.  I had to get help from the ride attendant who tried his best to pull the strap over me, still it wouldn’t click into place. I have to say, this was the most ashamed I’d ever felt in public.  I was told politely that I wouldn’t be able to go on the ride.  It’s embarrassing to hold up the ride, then be asked to leave and have a line of people watch you as you walk off the ride.  None of my family was with me, because until that point I was the only one who liked going on roller coasters.  I never did mention this even to any of them, but put on a smile and proceeded to tell them just how exciting the ride was.  However in the back of my head I kept thinking that some of these people at the amusement park would look at me and think “that’s the fat girl that couldn’t get on the ride”.  To this day I’ve yet to attempt to go on another roller coaster. I never want to have to feel that shame again and feel like I’m an outcast in society.  Now at 250lbs I feel more normal, I know I’m a lot smaller then I was when this incident happened, but I still feel that hurt inside.  I’m scared of still being labeled as that fat girl who can’t fit on the ride.  I’ve worked hard to lose the 100+ lbs I have, but I know I still have a way to go.  People who aren’t close to me or have known me since high school don’t realize(yes I’m overweight still) but I used to be so much bigger.  I wish sometimes people could see how far I’ve come from the 355lb girl I used to be.  Back to my amusement park fear.  This summer I hope to get over that fear.  I dont’ want to have to pretend that I don’t like thrill rides, because it’s better than admitting my fear of embarrassment.  This summer I’ll be hitting up magic mountain, and conquering one of my biggest set backs!

Food in it’s entirety doesn’t sound appealing.  I’d be perfectly fine with going to bed now.  I’m not hungry and I feel fine.  It’s so weird still to not feel hunger like I used to.  I have to consciously force myself to eat otherwise I’d literally go the whole day without eating.  This has happened on occasion and it’s something I need to work on.  Goal from now on.  70 grams of protein and religiously taking my vitamins.  Need to step my game up!! 

My legs and stomach do not shrink accordingly. So when my pants fit around my stomach they are too big around my thighs :/

size 18 jeans!! 

Let me clarify. Since surgery I’ve lost 60lbs, but in total I have lost 102lbs!  I’m a whole small person lighter than I was in high school. I can’t even wrap my head around it.  My journey is only just beginning, and I’m so excited for the next chapter in my life! I think I said I might just cry when I stepped on the scale this week, but I didn’t.  I haven’t really had time.  I’ve been at work, or in class, or studying for my midterm tomorrow.  I might cry tonight, because sometimes a girl just needs a good cry.  Next week I hope to see the 240’s.  

CW- 253

Have any of you wls patients experienced  these symptoms  I do well on my water and protein intake and my labs came back normal.  If it doesn’t go away tomorrow, I’m going to see my surgery clinic